Monday, October 25, 2010

It was not Death, for I stood up.

"It was not death, for I stood up,
And all the dead, lie down-
It was not Night, for all the Bells
Put out their Tongues, for Noon.

It was not Frost, for on my Flesh
I felt Siroccos - crawl -
Nor Fire - for just my Marble feet
Could keep a Chancel, cool -

And yet, it tasted, like them all
The figures I have seen
Set orderly, for Burial,
Reminded me, of mine -

As if my life were shaven,
And fitted to a frame,
And could not breathe without a key,
And 'twas like Midnight, some -

When everything that ticked - has stopped -
And space stares all around -
Or Grisly frosts - first Autumn morns,
Repeal the Beating Ground -

But most, like chaos - Stopless - cool -
Without a Chance, or Spar -
Or even a Report of Land -
To justify - Despair"

~Emily Dickinson~

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Beauty

This isn't beauty.
So to speak, nor good talk necessarily.
It's just It.
Some women' ll stay in a man's memory
if they once walked down a street.
~Rudyard Kipling~

Monday, October 4, 2010

Untitled

Meera,
I wish you a story with happy ending
And the wisdom to see that.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

A Single Night

It was Monday, I remember. The sky had been cloudy since dawn. At ten, rain began to patter down gently. Seeing the look of the sky, the headmaster closed the school early. Large chunks of black cloud rolled across the sky all the day, as if grandly preparing for something. The next day torrential rain started in the afternoon, and a storm blew up. It rained harder and harder through the night and the wind blew more and more fiercely. At first it had blown from the east, but it gradually swung round to the north and north-east.

It was pointless trying to sleep that night. I remembered that Surabala was alone in her house. The schoolhouse was much sturdier than hers. I several times thought of fetching her over to the school-I could spend the night on the raised bank of the pond. But I could not bring myself to do this.

At about one or one thirty in the morning the roar of flood waters became audible- a tidal wave was approaching from the sea. I left my room and went outside. I made my way to Surabala's house. The bank of the pond was on my way- I managed to wade as far as that, up to my knees in water. I scrambled up on to the bank, but a second wave dashed against it. Part of the bank was about six or seven feet high. As I climbed up on it, someone else was climbing from the other side. I knew with every fiber of being who that person was; and I had no doubt that she knew who I was.

We stood alone in an island nine feet long, everything around us submerged in water. It was like the end of the world- no stars in the sky, all earthly lamps extinguished. There would have been no harm in saying something, but no word was spoken. I didn't even ask if she was all right, nor did she ask me. We just stood, staring into the darkness. At our feet, deep, black, deadly waters roared and surged.

Surabala had abandoned the world to be with me now. She had no one but me. The Surabala of my childhood had floated into my life from some previous existence, from some ancient mysterious darkness; she had entered the sunlight and moonlight of this crowded world to join me at my side. Now, years later, she had left the light and the crowds to be with me alone in this terrifying, deserted, apocalyptic darkness. As a young budding flower, she had been thrown near me on to the stream of life; now as a full bloomed flower, she had again thrown near me, on the stream of death. If but one more wave had come, we would have been shed from our slender, separate stems of existence and become one. But better that the wave did not come. Better that Surabala should live in happiness with her husband, home and children. Enough that I stood for a single night on the shore of the apocalypse, and tasted eternal joy.

The night was nearly over. The wind died down; the waters receded. Surabala, without saying a word, returned home, and I also went silently to my room. I reflected; I did not become a Collector's chief clerk; I did not become Court Clerk; I did not become Garibaldi; I became an assistant master in a run-down school. In my entire life, only once- for a brief single night - did I touch eternity?

Only on that one night, out of all days and nights, was my trivial existence fulfilled.

~ 'A Single Night' : Tagore ~

The Last Bargain

"Come and hire me," I cried,
while in the morning I was walking
on the stone-paved road.

Sword in hand, the King came in his chariot.
He held my hand and said,
"I will hire you with my power."
But his power counted for nought,
and he went away in his chariot.
In the heat of the midday
the houses stood with shut doors.

I wandered along the crooked lane.
An old man came out with his bag of gold.
He pondered and said,
"I will hire you with my money."
He weighed his coins one by one, but I turned away.

It was evening. The garden hedge was all aflower.
The fair maid came out and said,
"I will hire you with a smile."
Her smile paled and melted into tears,
and she went back alone into the dark.
The sun glistened on the sand,
and the sea waves broke waywardly.

A child sat playing with shells.
He raised his head and seemed to know me, and said,
"I hire you with nothing."
From thenceforward that bargain struck
in child's play made me a free man.

~ Tagore : 'The Last Bargain' ~

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Giggle o Gorgeous

"I ask for a moment's indulgance to sit by thy side
The works that I have in hand I will finish later.
Away from the sight of thy face my heart knows no rest nor respite.
and my work becomes an endless toil in a shoreless sea of toil.

Today the summer has come at my window
with its sighs and murmers;
and the bees are playing their minstrels
at the court of the flowering grove.

Now it is time tp sit quite, face to face with thee, and to sing
dedication of life in this overflowing liesure."

~ "Moment's Indulgence' - Tagore ~

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Hurt

But...
You, you deep one,
suffer too deeply,
even from small wounds!

~ 'Thus Spoke Zarathustra' - Nietzshe ~

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Endless Time

"At the end of the day
I hasten in fear
lest thy gate be shut;
but I find that yet there is time."

-- 'Endless Time' : Tagore --